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emo...

oh gosh...I jus hate ..hate tis kinda of feeling!
tears been dropping like shit ! X(
was a emo nite...so damn emo..haiz..
esp when every1 came on9 looking 4 me....sending me wishes,
wanna thanks all n those who blogged 4 me!!!
really vvv gan dong when I read it! so nice of u all ..not 4getting 2 sent me wishes n muacks..telling me how much u all
'll miss me...waiting 4 me 2 come back ....sigh..
I cried like shit!
I really couldn't control at all...damn sad can X(
words jus can't express so I wanna thanks each of u ....
thanks pp tat purposely come on9 2 look 4 me..
thanks jieying 4 e poems...
thanks gl 4 ur "mickey"....
thanks naomi 4 "dino's pic"...
thanks 1st 4 "mickey's slide"...
thanks hong, gl, naomi, tps, esscue, jean, shenli, veron, eunice,
shanx, jieying, sandy,yiyi, 1st, huimin, pauline, zhenli...hope
I din miss out any1...

THANK U AND MISS YA!
LOVE ALL OF U!
TAKE CARE!






1 more day 2 go....

haiz...2day de mood damn bad..sigh..wat 2 do..haiz...
should be e last post b4 I go bintan ...cos as u noe I'm
damn retarded lor..blog 1 post already take up few hrs
lor..so if wanna blog 2morrow hor..sure not enough X
4 me 2 finish de so mus well blog 2day then I can blog a
long long n emo 1 lor x( ...but dun feel emo after reading
my blog hor cos I dun wanna 2 c all of u so sad b4 I leave
mus stay happy lor :)

okay, let me tok bout my review ytd...
I went down 2 c my doc n though appointment was fixed but
still nid 2 wait 4 around half an hr lor..so pek chek ={
then I went in..he checked on my throat ..

he said "gd, np le!"

then I said" howcome I still cough so badly huh?"

he said" really ar? ok..carry on with e med..should be ok by
tis wk.."

so I told him I'm leaving cos he asked me 2 go back 4 review again lor...then he was quite surprise n said....
" huh? 4 how long? aiyo..I'll miss u ler.."

I said" haha..maybe 6mths.."

then he said better give me 3 bottle of cough syrup bo later
over there de med I take liao no effect lor ..so e bill hor lagi
got effect ler..$97 !!! wth man! so exp lor x(( bluff my $ de..

erm..last nite I off9 at 12 05 am ba? sorry, gl ! I'm too too tired ! I was replying jieying halfway n nod off ..erm..think
is about 30secs ba!!! lolx! paiseh lor..so I told jieying I wanna
zzz le , so nvr wait 4 u lor ..yea, I saw e window tis morni...
u sign in jus 3 mins after I go zzz lor ..haha...cannot blame me
la..u so late then come on9 lor !!! I took med ma so cannot tahan ma..2nite dunno can tahan ma ler?? aiya if u can't come home early hor...then can onli chat with u in 1 ? 3 ? 6mths X le!

still coughing badly throughout e nite..haiz..so din zz well too
sigh.. ):

haiz..oh dear, e weather now is so "天 灰 " is like my mood
now lor..C e heaven gtg 2 cry soon..pity on me ma..sigh...
recently then I realise tat so many pp around me care 4 me
lor..which I din realise at all man! hope it is not too late lor..
I really appreciate it =]]
n I noe somex words couldn't express how much I wanna say..
I jus wanna tell u ..wo zhi dao ni dui wo de hao, xie xie ni! =]]
human can't live w/o friend de...so mus open up..take e 1st move ...care 4 pp around u n soon pp'll feel touch n 'll noe...
To all my friends~ please take care!!! though I'm not around
2 share ur prob with u..but I'll always ve all of u in my mind ..
no matter where I'm .....please stay happy=]] ...
I noe some of u re so use 2 chat with me le..everyday,rite?
please dun feel sad..I'll be back !!! 就 当 做 是 友 谊 的 考 验 吧
I'll miss all of u de!!!!!







2 more days...

okay ..a quick 1 cos not free lor..haiz...
yea...2 more days le...no mood liao..already damn no mood
then he still come ka jiao my blog...haiz..
go ahead n tag la! I dun wanna care anymore! tag dao ni shuang but please dun insult my friends n please mind ur words!!! not every1 like u so thick skin!!! PP I mention in my post doesn't mean tat they 're interested in me hor!!!
why ur mind is so "dirty" huh? inside ur brain onli got gb
relationship ma??? My friends care 4 me !!!! dun jump in2
any conclusion !!! wanna read my blog jiu read it quietly !!!
wanna bark like mad dog jiu get off man!
last ..bear in mind, dun ever scold my love 1 !!!! u re indirectly
scolding me !!! pissed off X((

damn no mood !wanna blog bout so many thing de ..haiz..
later ba...







nearer...n nearer.... :(

gosh..counting down..damn scare lor...haiz...
still cannot accept it...like nitemare, I really hope is jus a nitemare lor X( ...but ...sigh...
got lots of thing not done yet! dunno how lor???
cos e my bro's credit cards de bill , telecom bill, blah blah bills
all I handle de..he jia sai la..dun even noe how 2 write a cheque!then now he mus handle himself le!!! haha!
serve him rite! who ask him dun wanna learn lor..everything
rely on me :[
then another prob is...I can't bring along my hp!!! X((
cos is under my uncle's acc n got clients call in de..so I mus leave e hp with him bo client call me in Bintan then I nid 2
call my uncle again is vv mafan lor! then I asked him how I call home huh? He said use Mr Jonney de phone =.=
then now is like ..I'm lost in an island litat..no friends,no relative, no honey, no computer,no hp.....mus well kill me lor!!
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
dunno 'll I become dumb ma lor?! cos no pp 2 speak 2 ma..
maybe onli bernie! Omg !so scary can! alone there ..think liao
tears jiu drop...sigh...

change topic liao..bo eyes damn pain sia! oh ya..last nite pray
dao 2 am lor..then went on9, chat with jieying n esscue ..haha!
so tired but yet dun feel like zzz lor..I got imp things 2 rush..
haha..secret lai de..shhhhhh!!!!
then esscue asked me 2 drink more water ler but I didn't lor :(
last nite cos of "bai bai" smoke , I cough even more jialat !
I went 2 zzz at 3 10am then nvr zzz well lor cos keep coughing
lor ..haiz.. 2day lagi worst!!! cough like hell !!! cough dao chest
n stomach muscle also pain ): die liao..but nvm la, 2morrow
review lor but guess nth wrong de lor ..anyway won't postpone
le..cough is litat lor, always take mths 2 recover lor ..dun worry
wo mei shi de =]]

oh ya..I nvr blog bout tat sucker ben n SL (bung) 4 so long hor..
is not they nvr call..jus tat I nvr blog bout it cos I got my own
prob liao so dun hack care them lor! Tat sucker phone me almost everynite now..cos I told him I'm gtg 2 bintan 4 a yr!
hahahaha! I bluff him lor..he so lost litat..tat's y calling me
everynite but I onli entertain him 5-10mins nia lor..haha!
he said wk end wanna go over there 2 visit me =.= I told him
I dun ve e address..really hor...even ve , of cos won't give la..
he like v depressed litat..keep repeating "si liao" ..lolx!
I dun care whether u "si" or "wa" (alive) ..none of my business lor n he damn smart, asked me 2 dinner , said is "farewell dinner" lor..dunno la..wo hai mei da ying lor..c how la...
then tat SL better lor , called me once nia then get it liao jiu nvr call again le..not like Ben ,so thick skin lor ~.^

okay..think tat's bout all le..now wanna go ve a nap..maybe 1hr ba? cos last nite zzz at 3 20am then wake up at 5am lor...
now nodding off le..haha...kk..try 2 get some zzz but dunno can ma cos keeps coughing lor X(


日 子 越 来 越 近 。 。
我 的 心 越 来 越 舍 不 得 。 。
怎 么 办 ？ ？ ？
<3




postpone 2 1st of March...

yea..I requested 4 e delay..but jus a day so no diff lor..
cos last 2 days,I cough dao damn jialat x( ...then doc gave me
antibiotics ..mus c got improve ma..mus review on 27th ..
ermm..think is getting better le..no more blood le :)

C la..always say last post..quit...not blogging...then again here
come I blog again!!! mus be siao la *.* ..lolx!
noe y I blog again ma? cos my heart is make of "cotton wool"
de lor...not "肉 " lor =[[ ....我 就 是 心 太 软 ...心 太 软 ...一 个
人 流 泪 到 天 亮 ...haha..song lyrics...yea..too 软 了 ! when I
saw all those tag...my heart 软 lor!!! like I damn 无 情 无 义
litat X(( dun scold me la...I also 不 想 的 ! now sort of 想 通 了
wanna dig e hole deeper..自 挖 坟 墓 ！ lolx! like not deep
enough ma..so mus dig deeper than can zzz inside lor..haha!
dunno wat rubbish I'm typing la..sot sot le @.@

actually I'm not avoiding la..I thought I can make things not so
complicated lor..but I was wrong ! was damn wrong lor =(
I'm so selfish ..nvr thought of ur feeling..thought tat I let go then everything 'll turn back 2 normal liao ! ..but I been asking
myself ... does it really help at all? by not coming on9 ..'ll such feelings stopped? ..no! ans..NO , not at all! It 'll get worst nia...
cos tis would just make both of us really struggling.. till the end
dunno till when ???!!! therefore..I decided 2 come back...
I noe it might be a wrong decision...but..all I noe is...rite now..
tis moment now...we dun wan 2 be apart..so tat's y I'm back!
back 2 dig e hole !!! deeper n deeper then we both jump in n
bury there..lolx! jkjk! won't die la..e most is heartbreak again lor..haiz..life is sucks la...playing on us lor =[...
suan le...dun think bout it le...jus let it be e way it's wan 2 be..
就 让 我 们 跟 着 感 觉 走 吧 。 。 谁 也 不 知 会 有 什 么 结 果 。 。 但 ， 就 珍 惜 眼 前 的 这 一 切 吧 =]]

another thing is..wanna thanks gl n 1st !!! thanks so much..
4 e drawing..4 e mails..4 e slide ... they really brighten my day when I was down! thanks =]]

sorry 4 my selfishness!!! sorry 4 hurting u..
sorry 4 being so mean 2 u...
forgive me =[ ...
<3



thanks gl =]]




Goodbye...

oh tis should be my no.252 entries le! wow..I dinno tat though I started 2 blog on July 06 but so fast jiu blogged so much le! cos I fall in love with my blog..lol..
b4 I carry on...I wanna announce here..I'm quitting my msn n
blog at e same x! here is my emo entry....

I noe u all 'll be damn surprise 2 read tis ..yea..I'm quitting both at e same X...sigh...it's hurt but I got no better choice
then 2 do tis..really nid lots of courage 2 choose tis last move!
lately ,I've been thinking a lot ..a lot ...wat is rite n wat is wrong ? wat is e best solution 4 us? wat should I do 2 make it
not hurting any1 ? should I let go or carry on litat? It's hard 2 wait around 4 something tat might never happen, but it's even harder 2 give up, especially when it's everything u ever wanted !There re things tat we nvr wan 2 let go of, people we nvr wan 2 leave behind but I'm letting go sth tat is so imp 2 me..sigh..

I shouldn't ve started all these ...is my fault! I rather hope tat
I did not enter ur heart ...though I doesn't mean it! doesn't matter who enter who's heart? I ve decided 2 let go :(
u noe it took me so hard ..so sad..so ...2 type all these words ma?! my heart is like tearing apart...I hate 2 choose tis
last step but seem like I got no more better solution liao.
so I guess I ve choosen e rite one! as in is rite from other pp
de point of view lor !

I dunno how much u noe bout me? I dunno how much I noe
bout u but 4 sure is ..I noe I like u..love u..care 4 u..doesn't
mean tat I let go is stop loving ...caring ...bout u! No ! As I 've
always say ..I'll keep u in my heart ,mind n soul ! I'll nvr 4get u
cos u've already stay in my heart...I dun think which can be
remove easily....I dunno how long I nid 2 heal my wound but
doesn't matter if u nvr get hurt! remem I doing tis is 4 ur gd!
all I wan is u 2 stay happy ! so I guess we ve 2 end like tis..b4
everything turn too deep ....

I still dunno wat am I 2 u? maybe is nth 2 u or maybe u too
ve e same feeling as me ?? but is like we ve no future...I dun
wan 2 hurt u ...please 4give me ..4give me 4 not telling u all
these...4give me 4 nvr say my last gdbye ! cos I noe I sure
cannot tahan n bu she de ni...so I choose 2 tell tis way...
please dun be mad with me...cos I really really feeling damn
sad...I really dun wanna say goodbye to u ! =(
I dunno how long can I gonna hang on 2 it?
I dunno wat'll happen w/o chatting 2 u ?
I dunno I dunno....I dunno I can control not coming on9 ma?
I dunno .....I'm v vvv luan,vvv sad...dunno wat 2 say...
tears been dropping n dropping... I can feel e tears of my cheeks. It's raining in my heart....I think I dunno wat else 2 say le... I've learned tat people 'll 4get wat u said, people 'll 4get wat u did, but people 'll never 4get how u made them feel so I guess I won't 4get U!
wanna tell u one more X b4 I end my post....
Thanks u 4 all tat u've done 2 me...
Thanks u 4 walking in2 my heart,my mind n soul.
Thanks u 4 all ur care...
n last .."watashiwa anataga aishiteru ..I <3 size="5">TO friends

Hi...sorry 4 bu gao er bei!! thanks 4 all ur care n share!
u all re too nice so I won't 4get all of u =]]
Please take care!!! I 'LL MISS ALL OF U BADLY DE X(
I LOVE ALL OF U <3

<3











>.<

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg!
how can I 4get bout my "TAEKWONDO" huh?????!!!!!!
die liao...damn ! how huh? oh no...suddenly saw my nick then
remem lor..die , how??? I pay $200+ le ler @.@ aiyo...siao liao la! how 2 tell e instructor???? aiyo ..cfm die lor !
y mus u take away all of my love 1 huh? I jus join nia n so wat
am I suppose 2 do huh? so tis sat is my last lesson? oh shit!
seriously dun 1 can!!?? I waited 4 so long then finally decided
2 join lor...y turn up like tis de ???? Oh no...I jus start falling in
love with TAEKWONDO lor...
haiz...life is sucks..doing something tat u dun wanna 2 do shi
tong ku de lor ! x((
okay...enough 4 all these bullshit!!!!

oh no..I jus nod off while I'm blogging =.=
my jing shen seriously no gd lor ..2day dunno nod off how many hundred X liao =(
jus now my yi po came 2 my house hor..so I alone at home
mus entertain her ma...then she tok n tok n I nod n nod !!!
omg ! so paiseh...I noticed my head "swing here n there" lor
I think she went home after 30mins ..is damn fast lor..maybe she c I nodding off ma, die liao ..if 2nite she tells my mama hor .. I sure kena scold de x( my mama sure say I use comp dao so late lor..nvr zzz lor n blah blah blah lor!
dun ask me go 2 zzz hor! cos if I zzz now hor..2nite sure dun nid 2 zzz de lor!!! so better tahan dao 2nite!!!!!
okay ..tat's all I wanna say...I LOVE TAEKWONDO !!! *SAD*

<3



:(

haiz...last nite off9 at 1am+ then wanna pack luggage but too
tired le x( so is like pack lai pack qu ..onli minnie inside my
luggage nia =[ dunno wat 2 bring..so lost lor???!!! so I finally
decided not 2 pack le, not gonna send some stuff over le !
I should hand carry 1 luggage jiu hao cos if I cannot tahan hor.. I can jus carry n chiong back lor ! n even if I can bring all my
stuff over ..I think I also won't be happy lor X( wat I wan de..
I can't bring along ...sigh...so no point lor..guess tat 'll bring so
clothes ..then my most imp stuff tat accompany me during e nites ...minnie & mickey n my bolster lor!!! =]]
yea...mus bring them along lor..haiz...think bernie sure zzz with me everynite lor..lucky still got him, bo I sure bored dao si lor!

To gl~
okay..I should blog bout gl :P cos u so nice ma..specially blog bout me :) firstly...I nvr dao-ed U lor! cos I was blogging n nodding off n dunno wat happen 2 my siao siao comp lor..
e mess 's window nvr blink lor..so I nvr noe u're looking 4 me
ler! =.+ paiseh..sorry..dui bu qi!!! let u waited for an hr!
I public apologize le...dun angry liao hor :P anyway I saw ur window ma n did chat with u till 1am + lor..haha! ans= thanks! 4 everything...ur testi..ur muacks...ur care..n I'll take care of myself de..dun worry bout me lor :) btw I 'll always remem
u're e 1st 1 tat send me testi de ;))
yup..'ll miss u too !#.# n dun think can chat over there lor cos
onli some place got net wk connection nia =[ ...sigh...
you mus take gd care of urself hor n draw more pic of DEAN lor ..haha..jia you in poly!!!! dun create trouble again hor..lol
oh ya..remem wat u told me last nite ma? so c u on 27th of feb hor... lol!!! last...stay strong n happy... :))

To yun~
Hi yun...I'm so sorry ! guess tat we've 2 postpone our date le!
paiseh ..maybe when I'm back from Bintan ..can? cos rite now
really dun ve e mood lor x( anyway I'll remem I own u "cheese cake" lor!!! tat's a promise so I'll keep my promise de :)) sorry!

haiz...2day like falling sick liao...wanna vomit litat..then start 2
cough le n cough dao wanna vomit..throat pain but gurgle salt water le..better lor..then still ve'ing gastric lor...body like v hot litat..damn xin ku..haiz..die lor..nxt wk gtg le then now fall sick le..I jus cal calulate le..like 1mth sure sick once litat...die lor..

dun wanna think bout it...everyX xiang le yan lei jiu hui liu xia
lai...zhen de hen bu she de...zhen de hen bu xiang shuo zai jian..X((

<3
be..jia you n stay strong ! =]]



jus feel like blogging lor...

dunno y..jus feel like blogging ..I noe I'm tired but jus dun
feel like closing my eyes...still sad mood..die..so am I suppose
2 ve sad mood till 28th of feb ma???? I dunno how long I can
hold it...sigh...I keep crying ...my tears keep dropping out!!!
haiz...yea, I won't 4get all of u lor! thanks so much 2 all my
friends!!! so many of u been asking me 2 stay but is not up 2
me 2 decide lor! okay I 'm nodding off again...so dunno wat
I'm blogging bout n can't be bother bout it! jus wanna blog blog n blog....wanna make myself so sleepy..nodding off then I can
jus zzz w/o thinking bout all these unhappy stuff X(
recently everynite zzz at 2am+ then wake up at 5am ...
my life like screwing up le...upside down le...haiz..
okay..nodding off le..so can go bed le..

me too ...
<3



sucks!

omg..he called me again! Nowadays ans his call damn scare sia! scare he keeps changing n changing lor..later change 2 one yr I sure faint !!! he asked me 2 start packing some stuff cos he
wanna sent some over 1st...I so scare ler..like sudd wanna send
me 2 hang litat..like my 死 期 就 快 到 了 ！nvr been so nervous n so scare b4..haiz...die die die!!! I dunno wat 2 pack
la..I damn luan now...头 乱 ， 心 情 乱 ！ omg! wanna bring de
thing is damn many lor..how 2 bring all?? my bolster ,my mickey n minnie, my ........aiyo..how how how?????
I wanna cry ler...last nite been crying till so late then my eyes
like goldfish when I wake up in e morni! dun wanna let my mom c, later she'll cry too so all I can do is 2 hide in my rm..
covered myself with blanket n cry! sucks! my eyes so tired ...

I cfm with him again..."got internet ma?"
he said dunno ...cos some place v "wuru" no netwk connection!
damnit! even I buy laptop also no use lor..so mus go over check liao then noe which part ve netwk connection lor! X(
haiz...miserable ....lonely lor...my bday falls on wkday so dun
think can come back le X((((( !

okay..I mus blog more from now on cos 没 得 blog le =[[
I think I'll write diary when I reach there...haiz...
go pack some stuff le..sign... X(
wanna change blog's song le...too nice n too sad le..wanna cry
each X enter my blog..haiz...

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haish...

afternoon went out at 12pm lor...2 my friend , Serene's house!
then my uncle called me X( ...
haiz...haiz.....haiz.....
dun feel like blogging liao..haiz..heart like tearing apart :(
not gtg 2 blog bout wat I did n wat happen at my friend's house cos no mood 2 tok bout tat =[[
no mood now..damn sian n nid 2 fa xie lor !!!! haiz...

oh ya, I change song again..tis song hear from TV de..
vv nice but damn sad lor..esp when I hearing it rite now!
I jus can't control my tears...
my tears running down....my heart breaking....omg! I'm so sad! really so sad...they always say things 'll get better but they nvr say how long it 'll take ? I dunno..dunno wat 2 do? or should I
jus say..nth I can do at all!!! I dun wan 2 hurt u ..dun wan 2 c
u sad..I rather be e 1 2 bear all tat! how am I gtg 2 tell u bout
tis..I dun think I ve e courage 2 tell u but but but I can't jus leave w/o telling u!!! but yet hate 2 c u sad .....wth! hate it! y mus all tis happen 2 me huh???
If e angel gonna give me 1 wish now...all I wan is 2 let u stay happy 4ever!!! tat's my onli wish ...
I rather be ur book..a diary book? 2 be filled with all of ur prob,u come 2 me looking 4 solutions... u come 2 me whenever u got prob n sad mood ...throw everything 2 me n I'll always share with u but now..I'm so worry..worry tat who is gtg 2 cheer u up when u're down, who is gtg chat with u when u're bored,who is gtg 2 stay with u through e nite....so please please stay strong ...really mus stay vvv strong when I'm not around...jus look up 2 e sky when u miss me..when u're down..when u nid me..when u're happy..when watever...
I'm always there looking at e sky though is so far apart but
if we re of same mind...we re looking in2 each other eyes =]]

I won't 4get e strong feeling tat had happen between us...
e feeling so strong tat 'll last 4 so long..
now is jus like killing me ..taking away sth tat is so imp 2 me... is tat a hint from e god???
re u trying 2 ask me 2 let go now? gosh..is really hurting me so much... I noe my feeling 4 u is like..not rite but..I jus can't help..can't control myself !I'm sorry..so sorry ...if my appear has screwed up ur life! I noe there's no future 4 us...but jus tat ...jus tat..I can't..I can't..let u go ... my heart is aching ...so pain..so pain...I dun 2 say gdbye...I dun wan!!!! X((((
I 'm in damn lousy mood now! =[[

yea..I dun wan 2 make myself regret..so I'm gtg 2 tell u ..
sth tat I've always no courage 2 say ..so I gonna tell u tis b4 I leave....I love u..

sorry..4give me 4 not telling u last nite...I dun wan u 2 feel sad bout tis !!!..but I think I nid 2 let u noe..cos is so unfair 2 u if I jus leave litat....I'm leaving on 28th of feb ..1st mth cfm not coming back :( and e worst part is ...might be more than 3 mth! 6mth!!!! ...sigh.. :(
jus remem watever I do...wherever I'm...I'll always ve u in my heart...love u always ...

<3



Yo..blog again

finally n at last..buz day over le lor :)
haiz..someX jus find tat X really pass so fast..
so fast dao I also scare..yea, not suppose 2 tok over here..
emmm..okay, not gtg 2 say cos dun 1 2 make pp reading my
blog sad again! when e X is fix..I 'll let u all noe lor x(

nth much 2 blog but gl keeps asking me 2 blog lor.
erm...u're xiao tou lor..steal my pic!!! lolx! okay u wan me 2
blog long long de..here I'll blog long long de lor..c I so nice!
nodding off now :( ...1 30am..better zz,2morrow then con't blog..haha!

Hi..morni! now 7 o7am , I should con't 2 blog..hehe..
last nite so tired tat's y not even finish blogging jiu nod off lor..
wow..tis few days always nod off sudd lor! even during e day X
too..siao la..too tired liao *.* later gtg 2 my friend's friend,
should be back quite late le..erm maybe 8pm + so cannot come 0n9 or tag le..on9 after 9pm ba =]]

haiz..I bloghop hor,reading others de blog ...sigh..like so many
pp moodswing lor! so many pp feeling down recently!
dun underst y but try 2 stay happy la =]] Now CNY ma, although no more NY mood but still mus smile lor cos once a yr nia..there's a quote always say " The best way to cheer yourself is to try to cheer someone else up.” yea..I find it quite
true ler cos when I was trying 2 cheer pp up hor, I tend 2 4get
bout my saddness ler! so whenever I feel down , I mus go round cheering pp le ...haha! so I decided 2 blog bout cheering stuff here =]]

The blues overtake all of us from time to time. Here are 25 quick ways to pick up your spirits.
1. Keep a running list of inspiring quotes and uplifting jokes. Refer to them when you need to.

2. Call a friend and ask her to tell you her favorite joke.

3. Think about how things would look if your life were perfect. Now imagine your life is just that way, and live out the rest of the day with that awareness.

4. Drink two glasses of water. Many times, what I thought was sadness was really just dehydration. Sounds simple, but it's true.

5. Fake a smile for 5 or 10 minutes.

6. Read an uplifting devotional or meditation.

7. Close your eyes for a few minutes.

8. Call your mom.

9. Look through old scrapbooks or personal journals.

10. Go outside. A few minutes of fresh air can do wonders for your mood.

11. Go for a very quick jog.

12. Keep a gratitude journal, in which you write down things that you are thankful for. This is a great way to start and end each day. For a quick "pick-me-up," write as many gratitudes as you can in one minute. Don't think; just write.

13. Make something. Use your creative mind, and create something with your own two hands, whether it is a piece of jewelry, a scrapbook page, a pretty floral arrangement or a batch of cookies.

14. What is your biggest goal (or your biggest problem)? Do one thing that will contribute to its completion (or its solution.)

15. Keep a running list of things you enjoy doing. This sounds funny, but sometimes, when we're in a funk, we can't think of anything. Do something that you enjoy doing, just for the sake of doing it.

16. Think thoughts that make you feel just a little bit better. Find the best part of your situation and focus your thoughts on that. Repeat.

17. Eat something healthy and fresh. You could be feeling blue because your blood sugar has taken a dip. Eat a bowl of fresh fruits or vegetables.

18. Buy yourself a simple bouquet of fresh flowers.

19. Pour a cup of hot cocoa or a cup of coffee and read a favorite magazine for a few minutes.

20. Make lists. It makes us feel so capable when we can cross things off our to-do lists.

21. Turn on music. Your favorite tunes can really lift your spirits. Use classical and jazz to calm; rock and roll or hip hop to energize.

22. Write down what's bothering you, as quickly as you can without stopping to think about it too much as you write. You can achieve a huge amount of clarity from this simple exercise.

23. Mark Twain said, "The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up." He's right, and it doesn't have to mean a big time investment. Just do something thoughtful for someone, right now.

24. De-clutter a part of your home or office that needs it. These little jobs can be really uplifting as they give us a sense of accomplishment throughout the day.

25. Set a new goal. If I'm feeling down in the dumps, sometimes all I need is something new to accomplish.

If ur mood doesn't brighten right away, go with e flow
n accept ur mood jus e way it is. It is okay to be feel blue every now n then. Let urself rest n give urself time to restore ur own happy mood in ur own natural time. =]]

though may not ve stars everynite..but e star is always there by
ur side even it is cover by e cloud. e antidote 4 me..2 cure me
away from my miserable mood is...seeing u happy ! so if u wan me 2 stay happy, u gonna be happy 1st =]]

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buz sia...no X 2 blog!

..but fingers itchy le, so mus blog few sentences also shuang! lolX!
..2nd group of my relative jus left..sian! buz serving them like
waitress litat X( ...haiz..so tired,wake up at 5am then cook..cook..cook..serve..serve..serve..sian..sian..sian..so tired lor *.*
..nvr take lunch ! now wanna go eat le ..later 3rd group coming ler :( ..haiz...like zuo niu zuo ma lita !!!

okay..gtg..tata..go zuo niu zuo ma liao !

sorry if I affected ur mood..I should not blog bout it anymore!
dun wanna u 2 worry lor..haiz..sorry x(


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blogging at yima's house...

hi! now at yima's house..1st x blogging using othrt pp de comp..haha
too free le..lol! They playing mahjong ,enough "ka"(enough pp liao)
so I was left alone playing with maya! e black dog tat u said looks so
fierce n scary..haha! He is cute :) He wears a NY's tops! lol! so damn funny :P
but I love it lor!!! He likes me la..always lick me lor n his nailis so sharp
n long..dunno y they nvr cut 4 lor?? He scratched me dao liu xue le,a bit nia
la...

raining now..emo? ans=not really ! so is heng lor, I keep nodding ler..
lolx!jus nod off nia ..haha..nth 2 blog,,tok rubblish! but atleast I can come
here whenever I like lor..unlike if I'm really at bintan...then ..haiz..
mus keep my mind buz..bo once I'm free jiu can't help thinking of it ..sigh X(
really cannot imagine wat'll happen ..alone there? wat happenif I fall sick huh?
wat happen if my mama fall sick huh? wat happen if no comp over there huh?
wat happen if there's no star in e sky huh? wat happen huh? wat's gtg 2 happen ?
everything is so wrong lor! I mean e food,e culture....all is not e same lor!!!
I being so luo suo de...keeps nagging n nagging de ??!!! how I wish e x can stop
here...HAIZ!

oh ya..I change my blog's song again..hehe! I ve been changing n changing hor..lol!
got reason de! cos I dun listen 2 radio or mp3 de so once I come on9, I'll come 2
my blog then depends on my mood tat day..'ll listen 2 my blog's song e whole day!
tat means I onli listen 2 one song 4 e whole day nia ..lol! damn boring rite!??
but tat's me ! tat y I keep changing lor but no matter how I change it ... lai lai
qu qu still tat few songs lor,,haha! wo hen nian jiu de ..toopid lor! things or watever
I 'm like it or use 2 it ...I'll seldom change n stick 2 it lor =]]

okay..gtg home soon! happy blogging at pp's house ..lolx!
e feeling is kinda like tou tou mo mo lor..shhhhh..lol!
sayonara! =]]

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新 年 快 乐 。 。

finally ve some X 4 me 2 blog le :)
well, ytd was a buz day..pray,prepare 4 e steamboat & bbq dinner,mop e house....so tired *.*
dinner was nice lor but I prefer "bbq" de ..haha..but 我 吃 来 吃 去 onli "chicken,pork n salmon fish" nia..lolx! I love chicken lor! oh ya, I tried bbq mushroom..是 好 吃 的 lor! =]] n I can c firewk from my window =]]

I was quite pissed cos of my uncle! toopid la..asked me bout
tat matter during my "high" mood!!! X( damn 不 会 做 人 !
somemore dare 2 ask me 24th of feb go over there can ma??!!
I was mad la!! heng my mom said" siao arh! so fast? after ny
then say la" then I asked him whether can I jus go on every thurs then stay for 2nites...I was thinking at least I ve 4 days in
sin ma...He said he'll ask Mr Jonney 1st lor...*pray hard*
though I dun feel like gtg but is better than stay there for 3mths so damn bloody long lor! X( I got sort of "off mood"
after he tok bout "bintan" ! then heng ling damn funny lor..
made me laugh like siao litat..haiz..ny cannot haiz la..but..haiz..
我 不 要 去 ！ 我 不 想 去 ！ ！ ！ ！ ！

dunno y lor, now c my uncle's face jiu damn sian la!
he gave me a big ang bao..$500 ! I feel like asking him..I top up another $500 , bao hui ge ni..can dun go ma? X(
How I wish tat I can come out with some super gd reason 4
not gtg lor !!! okay..better stop all tis le..bo gonna spoil everybody de CNY's mood! sorry..if I ve make ur mood down!

erm...last nite after praying was around 1 35am le! I din go on9
but jus check mail n reply tagboards nia. I was so happy 2 c those comment bout my story lor =]] Thanks everybody!
but I should say I ended it so lan lor..as in I ,myself ,brain empty!! dunno wat n how 2 con't ? jus wrote according 2 wat's
tat come to my mind n wat's in my mind lor !n I din even ve e X 2 check lor...sure got lots of 错 字 lor! sorry n thanks anyway! =]]

tis morning wake up at 5am..means tat zzz for 2 1/2 hrs nia!
not again lor!..sigh.. my uncle fetch us 2 "光 明 山 " to 拜 拜 lor. then I took some pic of e cute 小 和 尚 statute but but but..
toopid me!!!! still couldn't figure out how 2 transfer it 2 comp!
cos I use my ericsson hp 拍 的 ! so mad with myself lor! damn
retarded lor X( e little monk vv cute de..nvm I'll try again 2nite..hehe!

okay ..mus go yi ma's house le !
bye n ve a vvvv HAPPY NEW YEAR!

..last nite again 1 star..so funny, tis 2 nites I can onli c 1 star
in e sky.. =]]
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Finally..

Oh yay! I finally jus completed my last chap of e chin story!
great! so happy but sorry 4 finishing so rush..paiseh!
I got no linyan last nite n was nodding off every sec man!
so went 2 zzz then wake up at 5am 2 con't lor..
yea..finally! ok..gtg 2 cook now..damn buz 4 e whole day x(
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

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SORRY...

I'm so sorry cos I nvr keep my promise...can't complete e last
chap of e story! X( try again 2morrow cos now "on keeps nodding..now also ndding ler..lolx! maybe cos of e med I taken
no...gastric again x( not v pain la !) cos med finish nid 2 standby lor..lolx!
ok..2morrow might not coming on9 cos mus pray pray at 12am lor x( even If I on9..is say "hi" n "bye"lor. so wish all of u a vvvv HAPPY NEW YEAR! CANNOT LE..MY HEAD SWINGING so sorry guess wanna sleep le! lolx! I dunno wat I'm blogging bout ler cos I been nodding off every few secs lor..lolx!

btw I saw 1 star in e sky ..wat about u ? =]]



~~~***爱与恨***~~~ ~~~第四十五集~~~
~~~人物介绍~~~**Dean**Honey(妹)**小爱**Dr Han(Sky)**

Sky在这时无法控制自己的情绪，他终于洒下隐藏在心中已久
的泪。我也跟着伤心的哭了起来。。。。我一时之间脑袋空空，不知该怎么安慰他似好。。。

[D] “Sky对不起。。要不是我鸡婆，你就不会再提起伤心事。。。”

[H] “不。。不关你的事。是我。。是我先提的。。
好了，听我唠叨了这么久也该送你回了。”

[D] “不用了，走几步就到了。。你先回吧！”

Sky坚持要送我上楼。。。他突然开口说到，
“Dean。。我第一次在医院看到你时，吓了一跳因为你长得实在
太像璇了！但，后来慢慢发现你和璇的性格完全不同！我。。我开始渐渐地每天情不自禁的想多看你一眼。早上起床一张开眼想到的就是你。。临睡前会想你才能安稳入眠，我知道突然对你说这番话你或许无法接受。。但今天忍不住还是说了出来！你不需要害怕也无须回应我。我只想把我对你的感觉告诉你。。。好了，说了出来。。舒服多了，哈哈！”

我一时之间不知该如何似好。。。只笑了笑便走进屋里了。这时我的心跳得好快，快得好象整颗心就要跳出来似的！不知道紧张什么屁？莫非。。我对他也有感觉。。。不可能的！真是的！


~~~***爱与恨***~~~ ~~~第四十六集~~~
~~~人物介绍~~~**Dean**Honey(妹)**小爱**Dr Han(Sky)**

我的脑海里一直想起刚才Sky对我说的那番话。我重复问了自己
好几遍，为何被那些话套在了？似乎找不到答案又或许是自欺欺人？已经有一段好长的日子不用烦情感的事了，现在又。。。嗨。。。想着想着，突然手机响了起来。。。在点电话的另一端是爸的声音。爸问我几点到医院。。我这时才发现已是傍晚七点钟了！于是放下
机马上赶紧洗个澡便到医院好让爸回来休息。

{医院}
抵达医院后，看到妹开始在进食了。妹的精神越来越好，我想再过三五天就能回家了。总算可以放下这块心中大石了！
从发生意外到现在，妹从没提起那件事。。也没提起
Max这是我所担心的事之一！

[妹] “姐，我的眼睛怎么还没好？会好吗？”

[D] “傻瓜，医生说过没那么快嘛！当然会好啦！爸，你回去休息吧。。这有我就行了。”

爸一走出病房，Honey便对我说。。。

[妹] “姐，。。Max。。他真的没来吗？”

我的天呀！害怕的事始终躲不开。。。。

[D] “。。。你进院的那一天他是有来过，但被我骂
过后。。。就没再出现了！这种人你还想他干嘛？你
今天躺在这都是拜他所赐！听姐说把他忘了。。。”

[妹] “。。我。。我办不到。。我不能没有他！他是
我的初恋。。我的最爱。。”


妹再也控制不了情绪崩溃的哭了起来。。。


~~~***爱与恨***~~~ ~~~第四十七集~~~
~~~人物介绍~~~**Dean**Honey(妹)**小爱**Dr Han(Sky)**

我还以为Honey不会再提起这个人了，没想到。。。。

[D] “Honey，过去的就让过去吧！不要再执着于已结束的
那段爱情，放下吧。。对那个人，你总是说放不下。其实，
是放不下你自己吧？是时候放开手了，那个人的事件已经与
你无关了，你再牵挂下去就好象拖著一袋垃圾到处走，把
自己弄得又脏又沉重。。何苦呢？”

[妹] “。。姐，我无法把他从我心中移走。就算他不再爱我，
我对他的思念有如海一般的深，关于我们种种的回忆，似乎
还停留在我们相爱时，我想我会一直这样爱着他吧！”

[D] “Honey，对你来说他曾经是十分重要的人但他却选择了
离开你！现在是你必须面对现实的时候。你和他就当是缘已尽
吧！重要的是，不要再拿过去的幻象来烦忧自己。过去的一切
已画上了句点。你不必失落，你已经失去了他，不能再失去自己！他已伤害了你，你不能再伤害自己。Honey，勇敢的转身走开吧！姐是过来人，相信我，日子久了。。时间会冲淡一切的。有姐在你身边，陪着你一起度过这段低潮。。美丽的彩虹一定会在雨后出现！”

这时Honey把我抱紧，放声大哭。。。。。
其实看着现在的Honey，我不知不觉想起自己当初的同样遭遇！很庆幸自己熬了过去，幸好当时有姑姑和小爱在身旁不断的开导我，要不然我一定会崩溃的！希望妹能从悲痛中走出来！很奇怪的脑海里突然会想起Sky。。对了，自从Sky对我表白后，我时常会莫明其妙的想起他。。难道说他已偷偷走进了我心房？？



~~~***爱与恨***~~~ ~~~第四十八集~~~
~~~人物介绍~~~**Dean**Honey(妹)**小爱**Dr Han(Sky)**

[妹] “ 姐。。姐。。你怎么了？怎么魂不守舍？”

[D] “ 哦。。我想起了一些事情，医生怎么说？有说几时出
院吗？”

[妹] “Dr Han说再过两天就能回了，但回不回还不是一样，反正
眼睛都看不见！姐，我想也许这一切都是报应。。我把你的男友占为己有，到头来还是被他踢掉了。还得搞到全身都是伤，这就是我的报应”

[D] “千万别这么说！过去的不要再提了，我们一起走出这阴暗的过去，把它当做上了一堂课吧！”

我相信Honey一定能从这阴影中走出来的！

小爱就在这时走了进来。。。。
[爱] “两姐妹在聊什么啊？聊得这么开心。。”

[D] “你怎么又来了？我不是跟你说Honey已经没事了吗。。
不要再翘课，跑来这看她了。”

[爱] “你放心，今天最后两堂课不用上所以就跑来看Honey。
顺便想找你谈谈。。。”

奇怪。。怎么小爱突然要找我谈什么呢？这时刚好护士小姐
要帮妹验血所以我们便到二楼的餐厅用午餐。我们边走边聊
起了Sky。小爱谈起Sky时，脸上流露出无限的笑容，一副幸
福样！我心里有些许的醋意，糟糕。。难道我真的不知不觉地
爱上了他吗？不。。我不想再谈感情的事了，不想再被爱情拖
累。爱情这玩意，碰不得！我已经伤了一次，不想再历史重演。还是一个人过着自由自在的生活比较好。。。


~~~***爱与恨***~~~ ~~~第四十九集~~~
~~~人物介绍~~~**Dean**Honey(妹)**小爱**Dr Han(Sky)**

[爱] “Dean，你知道其实表哥喜欢的人是你吗？”

[D] “ 。。是吗？你怎么知道？是他告诉你吗？”
其实我早就知道了，Sky已经向我表白了。。只是不想让小爱
知道因为小爱跟Sky从小是青梅竹马，我怎能介入呢？

[爱] “Dean，你早就知道了。。对吗？表哥常在我面前提起你，
起初我还没觉察到，直到有一天，表哥对我说。。。。”

[表哥与小爱的对话]
[H] “小爱，Dean有交过男朋友吗？”

[爱] “有！。。不过没了，那男人一脚踏俩船。。先是跟Dean
然后又搞上她妹妹，真是不要脸！对了，你问这些干嘛？”

[H] “没甚么。。我只是想知道多一点有关Dean的事吗。”

[爱] “喂！不要告诉我，你喜欢上她了。。。表哥，是吗？”

[H] “小爱。。能帮表哥一个忙吗？帮我约Dean出来，好吗？”

[爱] “嗨。。其实我。。我。。。”

[H] “小爱，我知道你对我的心意。。但希望你能谅解我，我一直都把你当妹妹看待。。你不会怪表哥吧？而我对Dean的感觉就不一样，我无时无刻都想见到她，她无时无刻都浮现在我的脑海里！我想这才是爱吧？！”
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[爱] “Dean,你现在知道我来找你谈甚么了吧！表哥约你在海边
见面。去吧。。你还是去把一切说清楚吧！Dean, 表哥是个好男人你要抱握这个难得的机会。。爱一个爱你的人。。”

[D] “小爱，我。。我真的不想在介入感情线里，好累。。好累。。不谈这些了，我们还是回病房看Honey 吧！”
我一面说，一面走开了。。。小爱追上来说道：“表哥说今晚八点，不见不散！”
我的心好乱，不知该不该去。。不知该如何似好。。。
。。舒服多了，哈哈！”
我一时之间不知该如何似好。。。只笑了笑便走进屋里了。这时我的心跳得好快，快得好象整颗心就要跳出来似的！不知道紧张什么屁？莫非。。我对他也有感觉。。。不可能的！真是的！好端端的，干嘛说这些。。。


~~~***爱与恨***~~~ ~~~第五十集~~~(完)
~~~人物介绍~~~**Dean**Honey(妹)**小爱**Dr Han(Sky)**

当我回到Honey的病房时，刚好Sky也在那！不知怎么的。。。。一见到他，我的心就跳很快。。好象就快停止呼吸了。。。。

[H] “Dean，Honey 明天就能出院了！”

[D] “ 真的吗？太好了！”
我没等他再继续说，就拿起手机打给爸爸。。。

[H] “我先走了，还得到别的病房去。。记得晚上见。”

我没会答Sky，我还在想到底是去好呢还是不去呢？

[妹] “姐，你又在发呆了！到底怎么了，你怎么最近老是
魂不守舍？”

[D] “我。。我很烦！Sky。。他，他最近对我表白了，他约
我今晚在海边见面。。我不知道该不该去？”

[妹] “去！当然要去！姐，不要再错过了。。不要骗自己，你
是喜欢他的。你常叫我做人要面对现实，不要逃避。。怎么你
现在却在逃避呢？能和自己喜欢的人在一起是件幸福的事，为何要钻牛角尖呢？幸福就在你手上，你却犹豫不决。。真是的！”

[D] “我。。我知道了！我会去的。谢谢你，Honey！”

于是我一直望着手表发呆，直到时间就快到了便赶到海边去！

[在海边]

我已经有一段时间没到这来了。。似乎这里充满着爱的回忆！
我和Max的总总过去都一幕幕的呈现在眼前。。。

[H] “对不起，你到很久了吗？我临时要开会所以迟了些。
你怎么了？怎么眼睛红了？快告诉我发生了甚么事？”

[D] “没事。。我只是想起了一些往事。对了，你找我来有甚么
事吗？”

[H] “哦。。erm。。记得上回我向你表白吗？现在我想知道你对我有甚么看法，能否接纳我呢？我对着大海向你保证，我对你的爱永不变质！”

哦。。好熟悉的对白！Max不是也在这对我说过吗？！结果呢？还不是一场空！

[D] “我。。我们才干认识没多久，对彼此了解也不多。。所以。。”

[H] “不！最重要是你对我有感觉吗？其它的都不是问题。。你相信我，给彼此一个机会。。让我证明我对你是认真的，绝对是真诚的！我知道你受过伤，能不能让我在你的伤口上服药，让我用我的爱来填满你的伤口！或许无法让你象以前那么快乐但至少我原意用尽我这一生所剩的时间来陪伴你，让我分担你的哀愁与烦恼。。让我把我最真诚的爱把你带到一个没有悲伤的世界，一个只属于你我的世界。。Dean，请你把你心的钥匙交给我，我会把它保管好。。请给我们彼此这个机会吧！”

我这时已是泪流满脸，不知该如何似好。。。夜已慢慢的暗了，这时我抬头望了望天空。。一颗流星划过。。我终于明白我等的人已经出现在握眼前了。。于是我望了望Sky，对他说道。。

[D] “你能不能象天上那颗星一直守护着那明月般的
守护着我呢？”

[H] “当然可以！我永远是天上的那颗最闪亮的星星。。
一直陪你、守护着你，那怕是刮风下雨。。我都永不离开你！”
我俩就在这闪闪星光的黑夜里一起远望着天空上的小星星度过
了浪漫的一夜。。。。

完结篇

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都是你~光良(Kong Leung)

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积

<3



X(

so sad can...ytd was a damn damn damn sad day lor X(
no mood at all...haiz...how can I not think bout tat huh???
so many pp asking me not 2 go but e matter is ...not 4 me
2 decide de! All I can do is..*pray* damn damn damn hard tat
my uncle qi siao sudd, then I dun ve 2 go lor!!! sigh...
I off9 at 1am+, then can't zzz at all...once my eyes close nia,
I'll start 2 think bout "bintan" ...OMG! dunno when can I stop
thinking bout it??? think fall asleep at 2 am+ bah?!
yea, NO NITEMARE ! but doesn't mean I sleep well n tight lor! guess wat x I wake up?? 4 30am!!! I zzz for 2hrs + nia!!! OMG!
wanna die liao..like no more battery inside my body...no strength...no mood...dun feel like doing anything at all...dun feel like eating also...wanna sick le, dunno is real sick or my heart sick??? =\ maybe I should try 2 squeeze sth out so tat I
got excuse 4 staying here..I noe u wan me 2 stay but...if really
can't ...then 怎 么 办 ？ wat 'll happen 2 us huh? I dun wan tis 2 happen! w/o chatting 2 u,I sure cannot make it de! wat am I suppose 2 do huh? If I really ve 2 go, I sure miss all of u de..esp U.. die die die die! I can't squeeze anything out man!!! Seriously dun wan 2 go lor!!! how? can some1 come squeeze ur brain 4 me huh? any idea???

die..not finish my chin story yet! really no 灵 感 2 con't lor..
haiz..'ll try 2 complete since is a promise but 原 谅 我 cos 一 定 not nice de lor..sorry!!! x(

To u~~u should noe who u're.. dun ask me again hor..wanna guess jiu guess e whole world n I won't tell u de lor..sorry 4 being so unfair but hope u underst ..among all my msn's friend , u're 1 of my closest friend lor..n u're e onli 1 tat I dare 2 "flirt with words" (noe who u're bah?)haha..cos we're so close but yet Ican't tell u so I feel bad lor..dun mad with me can *muack*..wanna "flirt with words" again le.. 对 不 起 ！

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KILL ME !!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!
I wanna die liao!!! X(
b4 I start die ,I mus scold tis toopid blogger 1st!!!
ta ma de blogger!!! toopid la u..wake up wake up!
I edit my post n u dun allow..so I re-blog again n u dun allow too! so I try again n toopid u publish both! okay fine , I edit again cos pp reading might think tat I'm siao, blogged same things..n toopid u dun allow me 2 edit n delete!!! qi siao ar u!!
so toopid, I so buz le still wasting so much X trying n trying again n again , so pissed man! toopid blogger..idiot blogger!!!
I noe I shouldn't scold pp in my blog BUT u're not pp lor so I
can scold rite??

Now..really feel like scolding pp!!! noe wat? I jus came back after meeting my uncle ..noe wat he discuss with me ma?
damn! He said " I wan u 2 go Bintan , Mr jonney 's factory ..
he is trying 2 get more orders 4 us so I nid u 2 station there 2
help him cos he is not familar with those pricing n paper wk..."
I was like ..wtf ! huh? wat? sucks! shit! then I asked,
" huh? mus go meh? when? how long? 2days ar?...." so many qs lor, so sian liao =\ then after hearing his reply , I almost
faint on e spot!!!! He said mus station there for 3 months!!!!!!!!
wtf!!! wtf!!! wtf!!! wanna die liao X( X( X(...mus well kill me!!!
Seriously, I dun wan 2 go!!! even u pay me 10k ,I also dun wan lor!!! Can u imagine tat I'll be alone there w/o my mama?
worst part is NO COMPUTER! even if he has, u dun expect me 2 use it rite? cos I'll be staying at his house n last x when I was
there, I saw him always stay in his rm n most of e x, he sticks
2 his comp de! so how am I suppose 2 use ??? oh no..I'll die
w/o comp!!! really 'll die man!!! is not a wk ,okay...3 months ler!!!!! siao liao siao liao!!! I gong gong look at him n dunno
wat 2 say! then he said end of feb..omg! my bday over there???
No way man!!! He said" u can always come back on wk end.."
I then dun wan lor, u wan me 2 vomit every wk ar?? I still dun underst y mus stay there for so long then I ask him again. He said cos My Jonney sen mo dou bu hui , mus wait 4 everything
settle then I can come back. Then I told him I also sen mo dou bu hui ma! He said at least paper wk n invoices ..all tis stuff I noe lor! I asked him " wat bout mama? I not around then mama how?" he said got my bro n my mama not little girl,
she noe how 2 look after herself lor! u win lor! hate u la!!!
always arrange things tat I dun like n I seem like ve no choice
at all! so mad...wanna cry..so sad...

u won't noe how I feel rite now!things seem 2 be getting better n now u wanna ruin it!!! u noe in another words u're trying 2 kill me ma??!!! I been trying so hard n squeezing my brain 2 think of way 2 maintain ...n yet now everything seem like gtg
2 end!!! I noe is 3 months nia but u noe time can drift pp apart ma??? I bet u dunno at all cos u re so cold blooded! all u noe is $$$$$ !!! U asked me 2 give u ans after CNY so can I dun go ?? I strongly believe tat, pp nid 2 keep in touch ,as in tok ,
everyday 2 maintain their relation..of cos wat I mean is those
close friends, couples,husband n wife... tat's y I always try 2 keep in touch with friends n try 2 tok 2 u everyday...I noe tat once u stop toking 2 tat person, u'll slowly walk out of her life
le..then all e effort tat u've been puting in...all 'll be in vain le!
I dun wan tis 2 be happen..I dun wan !!! X( X( X( ...
tell me wat should I do ???? oh gosh! no cny mood le..
wat F****** mood also dun ve le! so sad...sigh...
y ??? y dun u go urself ? y mus be me???
I feel like I'm falling from a moutain ...my head is so damn luan n my heart is so damn sick !!!!









High high in2 e sky =]]

okay, let me begin with my tagboard 1st ba!
Thanks mitang 4 creating a new tagboard! so u all can flood
me in tis new tagboard le, nth 2 do with tat old ones n btw
tis 'll be my new blog.
Once again remem tat "babe-babehew.blogspot.com" is onli
4 tat sucker 2 tag ! I 'll not blog there anymore, so p/s remem
link me after CNY ba :) n not 4getting 2 tag on my blog cos I
love c'ing my tagboard "flooded" lolx!

ytd was a damn buzzzzzz day lor...
morni I took a heavy breakfast( fried meehoon) cos I noe I
won't ve X 2 eat in e afternoon x(
so after doing some of my paper wk, I start 2 wrap "wu xiang"
4 CNY! My relative love my "wu xiang" :P so bo bian since
last yr , I always make "wu xiang" lor...like 1kg of pork n 1kg
of prawn! I added carrots, garlic, onions, 2eggs, 30pics of cream cracker(so da bin) erm...oh ya , 1kg of water chestnuts!!
was damn buz lor...I start from 9am n finished at 2 45pm!
was rushing like hell lor, so worry can't come on9 ma then I speed up like "bullet train" lolx! so heng finished in X...3pm sharp =]]

Oh dear ..I hate PRAWN!!! I peel e kg of prawn dao my hand
so itchy!!! x( I was sort of sensitive 2 prawn lor!!! but bo bian
cos mom said mus put prawn then nice , I bet so ba?! later should post some pic of my " ichiban wu xiang" here..haha!
my hand so buz still can take pic lor..lolx! yea..my uncle bought me a new camera 2 wks ago, I 4get 2 mention lor! same brand but diff model x(
okay, 2morrow still mus make agar agar..lolx! so buz lor cos
CNY many pp come 2 my house de, esp e 2nd of CNY !!!
I dunno whether I can come 0n9 during CNY ma cos Sat's nite
ve 2 help mom 2 pray till 1plus then 1st day of CNY mus go 2
relative's house..then nite mus zzz early cos 2nd day of CNY,
lots of relative eat at my house so I mus zzz early on Sun as I nid 2 wake up at 4am 2 help mom preparing all e food lor !!!
so scare CNY lor but is happy la!!! Watever things we do ,mus
do it with a happy mood n heart then won't feel sian lor...
lolx! Cny hai mei dao..I keep toking bout it le..haha! link back 2 ytd...

best Valentine's present...
yea...shi kai xin de lor =]]
so high when I come on9 at 9pm.. I chat with shanx n told her
I'm so nervous ..lolx! then so zhun ler , 9 15pm sharp jiu read my letter le!!! I was so so so happy ..lolx! I bet u can't underst
y m I so high la!!! cos I wrote e letter n was reading it out by e
DJ...then dedicating 2 all my love 1..is kinda of "gan dong" lor
Thanks jiahui 4 reading my letter n thanks 4 reading out all e
name!!! then every1 was so high lor n I got 13 windows while
listening 2 933 ..lolx!
wanna thanks Naomi! c I so nice, broadcast 2 ty!!! w/o ur help
recording it, so many pp won't ve e chance 2 ting dao lor :)
mitang's mp3 got prob so I send 2 her...then I also send 2 peiyun,shenli,huiyi,jean n esscue...C naomi , ni de gong de wu liang! lolx! I keep listening it over n over then naomi said I siao ler! x( no lor, I'm not siao la ...I'm litat de lor.."emo" de ren jiu shi litat de! I can even read back those touching blog,
tag, letter...even past msn mess..again n again lor..wahaha..I noe u gonna say me siao again le..lolx! I noe where got pp so
free go n read back those things de..got lor..me lor :P
tok rubbish again..hehe !

then I zzz around 1am . I had a nitemare !!! u noe , no sweet dreams ler! so bad de X( I 4got bout wat e dream was le..can
onli remem sth like...I went in2 a jungle then kena chase by tiger or bear? ? dunno wat lai de la..then I run damn fast ,
I knocked on2 a tree then faint..then wake up was tied n throw inside a big pot!!! omg! like those "ye ren" wanna cook me litat! I shouted n shouted so loud then they dance around..
e way they dance hor ,damn funny can!!! cos I watched e "the
dance floor" ma, then e "ye ren" dance like them...lolx! so funny lor...I woke up keep laughing n was thinking howcome
inside my dream, I can tahan not 2 laugh huh? lolX! okay, then e "ye ren" lighted e fire!!! I was sweating like shit! then jiu wake up liao..n was really perspire like shit ! then I wanna take some tissue ma but was so dark n I knock on2 sth!!! not tree hor..cupboard!!! tell u ar, my knee was so so so damn pain can! shit ! there's a "barugu" on my knee now! shit lor! pain like hell man! x( suay lor...ga lai wo de meng de bu lai, bu ga lai de
pian pian lai x( !!!

oh ya, maybe not blogging during CNY le ..
n now mus rush 4 my chin story..so sorry ..hope can finish by 2day! tata


hope 2 c u in my dream 2nite =]]
<3



HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY =]]

oh another ten mins jiu shi Valentine's Day le...lolx!
dunno happy 4 wat sia..haha! okay, wish all of u ve a wonderful n unforgettable Valentine's Day!

oh ya ,tis is my new blog add! please dun link me 1st..

Valentine's Day Letter...
A wonderful day of hearts on tis day,some could onli wish tat tis day would nvr come while others wish tis day would nvr end .There is onli 1 thing we can nvr loose,its e heart !e heart so special ....u may not noe much bout me but doesn't matter at all. Its e little things bout u tat captivate my heart n if was 2 write them down,I wouldnt noe where 2 start..haha..
I jus wanted 2 let u know...as days go by, my feelings get stronger, how happy u ve brighten my each day...
can u set a place 4 me in ur heart n not in ur mind 4 e mind easily forgets but e heart always remem?!though u nvr tok
much but I luv e way u make me happy n e ways u show ur care..I noe u care 4 me too!
Let's share e world. A sea is 4 u n waves re 4 me. e sky is 4 u n stars re 4 us. u shines like a bright star!an invisible strength u ve..a star so bright tat shines in my world!e best n most beautiful things cannot be seen or even touched mus be felt with e heart. I wan 2 take tis opportunity 2 thanks u once again thanks you 4 wallking in2 my heart,my mind,my soul,my life...
thanks 4 everything u've done ... If loving u is wrong, then I dun wanna be right! wanna say again..
NO MATTER WAT'S IS E OUTCOME,NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN,NO MATTER HOW FAR WE CAN GO,NO MATTER
HOW IT IS,NO MATTER HOW U 4GET ME IN FUTURE......
I'LL ALWAYS CHERISH THOSE SPECIAL "MOMENT" WITH U THOUGH IS IN "TAT" WAY! I'LL ALWAYS REMEM U N ALWAYS VE U IN MY HEART...
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY=]]

Kimi o ai shiteruSukiyo
<3

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